Stop This Train

I realized today how fast time is going. We are almost to Thanksgiving break and then after a blink of an eye it'll be Christmas break and then before we know it our first year of college will be over. It is so crazy to think that this time last year I was just getting my acceptance letter to Gordon College. I cannot believe I am sitting in Chester's right now, having gone here for almost three months. It just blows my mind. I just wish I could slow everything down for awhile. Why is it that we sometimes want everything to go so fast? We always look ahead and wish that we were there. When you are running a race you just want to get to the finish line, but what about all the growth that happens while you are running? Why can't we just be happy during the race and realize that we need all of this growth so that when we do finally get to the finish line we will truly be able to enjoy it. If you just skip everything, then getting to the finish line wouldn't mean anything. So I guess I would just say enjoy the race as dumb as that is to say. Ugh...I just wish I could stop everything just for today...

Fall Is Here To Stay

You scream! I scream! We all scream for ice cream!

I love how when you want something, you can just go out and get it! My friends Kaethe and Sara and I really wanted Ben & Jerry's, so last night Kaethe and I made the trek out to Woodland in the rain to go get some. I am too embarrassed to tell you how much we spent. But oh well, you only live once right? And it's not my fault, it's my mom's fault. She was the one who told me to act like a kid and I don't know one kid who wouldn't pay $4.19 for ice cream if they could. OOPS! I guess I just told you how much we paid. And that is for one thing of it! Can you believe that? You know what though? It was SO worth it!

Afternoon in the prayer chapel? I think yes!

So far so good on taking my mom's advice. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I walk a golden retriever named Traycee. When I took her for a walk I played in the leaves and acted as much like a kid as I could! On the way home I decided to roll my windows down, despite the rain and turn up the heat in my jeep. So I drove all the way back to campus with my windows rolled down, Dean Martin blaring and the wind in my hair! :) (I wouldn't normally put a smiley face, but that is how happy it made me.) I always have fun driving, but today I especially enjoyed it. Usually I'm driving everyone else, which isn't a bad thing, I actually love driving people places, but sometimes it is nice to just have some alone time. The sky was gray and the leaves and rain were falling, I mean...it can't really get better than that. Most people find it weird, but I love rainy cloudy days. I actually prefer them over sunny days. There is something just so wonderful about them. Currently I'm sitting in the prayer chapel in the back of Frost with my friend Sara. I may start getting very repetitive when I say, "I have such great friends here, I'm so blessed!" But I mean it every single time I say it. The fact that she even thought to ask me to come with her was so sweet. What a great day to just sit and pray. I guess what I like about rainy days is that it seems to slow everything down. I didn't think I had enough time to just sit and pray but somehow, I do. I'm going to go pray now...thanks rain!

Hair dye smells.

Real Simple

Although I got a lot of things accomplished today, it wasn't the best. I got so overwhelmed so I called my parents and talked to them together for a long long time. My mom challenged me with this: "Alexandra, promise me that for the next few days you will try to keep your heart light. Do silly things, be a kid. Jump in a puddle, go spin around in the quad behind your dorm until you fall down laughing. Try to keep your conversations light. Watch movies that make your heart smile..." and so on. I think that is a challenge that I can definitely take! Well I say that, but having deep conversations with people is something that I love to do and something that my friends and I do quite frequently. But for the sake of my mother and me, I am going to try. So for the next few days I'm going to try and keep things simple. We'll se how it goes, but I pray that God will give me the strength to accept this challenge. Maybe you should challenge yourself to do the same. Sometimes we make things so much more complicated then they need to be.

I dream.

About you and me playing by the sea.

I dream.

About the nights we’ll spend smoking pipes by the rocks.

I dream.

Of making cookies and drinking tea.

Oh how I long to be, like

All those books on the shelf that you know so well.

And the respect is mutual.

Winding staircases to unknown places.

The old bell, hear it ring, ring, ring.

But not until November.

Timing is everything.

I dream.